It's been good to be... Well, you know...

Things have been really good since my last post.

Granted, I was in a mixed episode of sorts, where I was both manic and driven into a depressed state coupled by anxiety.

In other words, I was in an aroused manic state where I wanted to share myself with Ellie as only we could do together as a couple.

Then, I got depressed Thursday night when she said she was extremely tired and only wanted to sleep.

I had worked myself up really high to have intimacy with Ellie.

The next day, I was really, really tired from not sleeping and I felt that I was at fault for so many things.

I wound up taking as close to half a Seroquel as I could.

The damn thing just about knocked me completely out, and I had to stop working.

When I sat down in the recliner, I passed out for several hours.

After I woke up, I was still wound up so I took half of a Xanax and finally calmed down.

Ellie is off from work a half hour before the Misses are out of school.

She stopped by the house on Friday to get changed for her workout session, and we were both in such a state for intimacy that we ...

Well, you know...

That helped settle my freakin' mental & emotional freak out.

I believe things happened again that night.

Saturday morning things happened again, and again that afternoon I believe.

That night we were both exhausted and Ellie bruised her heel really bad, so we took a hiatus.

Sunday morning didn't stop us, neither did the afternoon, nor did the late evening session.

Needless to say, things went very well, and We feel like we're in our 20's again, and ...

Well, it's good to be ...

All I can say is that I love Ellie and we've enjoyed each other so much that we hope we can continue with everything at this rate!