I'm not happy Bob. Not happy.

That quote's from Mr. Incredible's boss...

Right now that's about the way that Ellie (Remember she's my wife...) is feeling...

For several reasons...

I haven't been using my CPAP machine very much recently... Why? I don't know exactly... I think I am starting to see it as "a real pain in the ass" vs. "Hey it helps me to sleep better".

I also have been forgetting to take my Zyprexa and that's really flipping Ellie out even more.

It's sort of exciting to be in trouble like this... I don't know why... Perhaps I'm just an insane crazy mother fletcher...

That's got to be it...

Maybe that's why I'm a bit down when my boss didn't rip me a new one several months ago for letting my work slide really bad. He knew I let it slide, I knew I let it slide... but he didn't give me hell for it.

Well, now I'm on top of my game again and I'm starting to become Mr. Incredible again!

w00t!

Boy, Ellie would be pissed right now if she actually read my blog.... Maybe not... It's hard to say for certain as she's never really understood mental health problems.

I never really understood it until I realized that I was getting brain farked last year and I couldn't get it to stop!

And I'm also doing pretty good about not using my fast acting pain med too.

I'm out of Ice Cream and I don't feel like getting more!

How's that for sudden shit?

I'm feeling pretty awesome.

Am I manic? I don't think so, I think I'm ... I think I'm feeling pretty on top of things the way that I used to be.

Perhaps I was manic most of the time and got really freakin' depressed.... Shit Ellie will have a fit if I stop taking all of my meds...

So I won't stop, but damn... I feel alive today.