Today's a good day...

It took me a while, like usual, to get moving again.

Aside from the rant about the CO2 cartridge, things are actually doing well.

I mean, earlier, our youngest was wasting time getting ready for school and needed discipline, but that's it.

Last night, I took 2.5 mg of my Zyprexa and now that I'm a good way into the day, I'm starting to feel more alive again.

Perhaps I need the smaller dosage instead of the 5 mg. I took the 5 mg because I thought it would help me more... It might help me not crash more, but it was stifling my normal crazy creative behavior.

Like many bipolar people, I think I like the moods that are up, and I feel like I can just connected various coding points into a single entity for my job.

Hell as a coder, I definitely feel like Neo from The Matrix... I can often see all the source code of what I'm working on and I can write perfect code from point to point without any excessive debugging... I mean, writing it so that it runs correctly the first time through without problems.

For me, it's often not IGOG. (Input Garbage Output Garbage)

It's really nice to see things in your mind from input to output and know that it's all connected correctly the first time.

If my current mood & mode are due to bipolar this will last me all day and not like an instant mood boost from stuff like caffeine...