Didn't sleep well at first. Originally awoke @ 5:00 AM. Used bathroom and though of staying up but felt tired enough that I went back to bed only to not sleep well until I got up at 7:00 AM.
Since my neck hurt, I took a hot bath, shaved & soaked till almost 8:00 AM.
I felt nauseated so I didn't take meds till after I was dressed.
For some reason, I felt really really "emotional" like I just wanted to cry. I didn't have any rational reason for these emotions. I started freaking out, starting having irrational thoughts of being like Billy the Kid or gun fighter. At the time I was reeling and not certain what to do. I had to go in for an MRI but didn't feel stable enough to go alone. I asked Ellie to take me and she did. I felt really bad asking her to take me. I'm not a child. I cried for a bit in my office upstairs. I finally decided to tell my manager that I was having problems, they were emotional and that I was unable to work some days. He was very supportive and was very understandable. He asked if I needed anything and I told him I was already using the EAP. (Employee Assistance Program). My manager, enforced my good skills and I told him I didn't want to be treated differently, only for him to understand I was having problems.
I took a pain killer for the first time, only as a possible mood enhancer. 30 min later, I took half a Zoloft and since my head started to hurt, I took another pain pill.
Ellie drove me in and I told her about my anger episode on Sunday, that I was able to control. Even though I felt mad as hell, but I wasn't mad at anyone in particular and it wasn't personal. I just felt extremely mad.
I made it through the MRI just fine and felt almost stable by then. We went to DQ on our way to get the girls from the in-laws.
At my in-laws, I still felt a bit unstable but was able to function.
At home, and trying to work, my head hurt more and I was able to take the pain meds again as needed. At least I took it for pain now.
My niece and nephews are spending the night tonight. We're planning on playing Magic or maybe Fluxx.
We wound up playing a few rounds of Fluxx, a game where the rules & goals change based on the cards played.
After, I showed my oldest nephew how to start up Half-Life II. I then tried to help Big Miss play Magic against Ellie, and my nephews.
My head started hurting again so I took a pain pill & laid down in bed and tried to read a bit. I think I fell to sleep around 10:00 pm.
Ellie came to bed sometime around 11:00 PM, I think, because I caressed her for a bit and I aroused myself and we made love. This was amazing because earlier in the day, I had told her I didn't always feel aroused or felt the need for intercourse.
I went back to sleep after 12:00 AM.
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