It's finally happened... Ding dong the wicked ....

I always thought when it happened I would be doing back flips or something.

Yet, while I am emotionally relieved, I feel bad for Giant/Old Miss.

My oldest daughter, who I believe I used to call Big Miss here, I am now calling Giant Miss.

Last week, she called me and told me her mom had been admitted to the hospital for severe bronchitis symptoms/problems.

Now, Big Miss said that her mom was having problems for over a week and they hadn't gone to the hospital no less to a doctor.

They live in a small city about 30 miles from the next larger city with doctors & hospitals.

The story that Giant Miss gave me for her mom not going in sooner was that they "couldn't" get a ride from anyone.

None of their "friends" were able to give them a ride, nor could her grandmother or others they knew.

I asked if they had called anyone at church or asked the person who lived next door.  Or WTF not call 911 for an ambulance.

An ambulance would've gone out there and picked her up.


This morning Giant Miss called me in tears.

Her mother, my ex-wife, had died.

When she called in tears, I knew what had happened.

It wasn't necessarily a surprise when Giant Miss told me.

It was a relief in many facets.

• My ex had been the a tormentor and source of so much turmoil in my life.
• She told so many lies to people where we had lived
• I had no idea who believed what at church.
• I got so many bad looks and avoidance that it was very hurtful.
• Many of my friends avoided me for awhile.
• It was about 6-9 months after she left that I finally found out what she said.

What I really had concern about was that Giant Miss was really overcome with grief.

Her mom "raised" her and hid her from me since they left.

The only time I usually heard from my ex, was when she wanted something.

• Where's the child support?
• This was withheld from me in my paycheck.
• I had no control over this.
• I wasn't going to call my payroll for it, because they just took it and handed it over to the child support people.
• I need more money.
• Bullshit.
• What happened to the child support money?
• I already have another family, bills and other stuff to pay for.
• I'm still paying for a shit load of the debt you left me in!

 I have many, many, many bad things to say about my ex.

After all, I did complain about many of them above.

There were many times when Giant Miss was a youth that I wished her mom would pass on, so that Giant Miss would have to live here with Ellie and I.

That never happened.

When Giant Miss lived here a few years ago, I never spoke ill of her mom, nor did I go into any great details of how terrible of a person I thought her mom was.

In short.

I want to dance and celebrate...

but...

I also want Giant Miss to know that I really don't wish ill of anyone.

For Giant Miss, I feel sorry for her loss.