Here it is again.

I'm tired as heck again.

The mania still seems to be going on.

It's not a fun mania this time.

It's been more of the pissed off & irritated state one.

Yesterday, it was a very highly sensory overload day.

Ellie was reacting very, very badly and adversely.

It was almost like she had to react, yell at me and all but sit on me and pummel me.

Now these are my perceptions.

I know that she was reacting how she thought she should be.

Her compassion is almost gone, it seems.

Let me get another insight here.

She works with autistic children.

About half of these kids run into sensory overload and start bouncing off the walls, screams, etc.

I'm trying hard to hold things in, but it's very hard like it was yesterday.

All I wanted to do was be left alone, if you will.

But Ellie wasn't going to leave me be.

It seemed that everything that I tried to do to minimize things just pissed her off.

Nothing that I was doing was personal towards anyone.

I was just trying to minimize things.

How do you like it when you're sensitive to the light and sound?  Even to touch?

It sucks.