https://youtu.be/D2NtlTFQznA)
If you haven't seen the video, take time to watch it.
You'll either laugh at it, or stand aghast.
I'm not going to do anything in that video...
I'm just bored.
I can work, but I want someone to talk to.
It's hard for Ellie to understand it sometimes.
Recently, Ellie wants me to perform like I did when I was in my 20s.
Well, things just don't work like anymore.
I am thinking more and more about just moving all my work hardware back to the fucking corporate site and driving there day or night whenever I need to work.
For the past 7 years, I've worked at home 99.9999% of the time.
It's gotten old, and I want my office & desk back.
I really don't like coming in here after I'm done working.
It kind of defeats the need for my office or desire to do anything with my other hobbies.
Since I was put on Zyprexa, I'm now very fucking tired for half of the day, until it wears off.
Working from home makes this hard to deal with.
Ellie will basically ride my ass until I'm out of bed.
She doesn't say anything, but instead, makes the bed while I'm still in it.
When she does this, she isn't really considerate about it.
She flips the blankets all over, turns on the fucking overhead light fairly bright everytime.
Whenever I worked at the corporate office, I usually showered and dressed in as low of light as I could. That way she could sleep longer.
These days, it seems that she's just not being considerate or compassionate towards me or others.
Hell, I don't know if she's even nice in the classroom with the special need kids these days.
I love her, and I think that she's getting burned out from working.
One or more of the children in their classroom has been much more needy these days.
Ellie's not the teacher for the classroom, so I don't know if she's being assigned to work with the kid(s), or if she's volunteering.
Now Ellie will usually volunteer and try to fix and patch things up.
That's why she's started spending a lot of time at Sally's house.
Sally and her husband are hoarders.
There's so much shit in their house, that they were given new kitchen cabinets and they might not be installed.
I remember seeing the new cabinets in their kitchen years ago. I couldn't help them do it at the time, and I'm not sure if anyone else I know with skills helped them.
Ellie and the Misses spend 4+ hours the Friday of Memorial Day weekend and brought down an old couch and shit loads of other trash & junk.
That was only from ONE room in their upstairs.
They also have several other rooms and attic spaces crammed full of junk!
We know when Ellie has finished helping them clean up everything, that the hoarding will go back to usual.
See, the reason why Ellie is helping them, is that Sally & Husband need to get a loan to get their electrical system update.
The house is so messed up, it should be condemned.
Plumbing in there is old and messed up, walls have mold, attics are full of old mattresses & rags, etc, that there are probably mice, opossums, etc living in them, and their electrical wiring is FUBAR.
But...
Sally's husband inherited the house that was all paid off.
All Sally & Husband need to do is maintain insurance and Taxes for the property.
They both have mental health issues.
Sally is one of those "bat shit fucking crazy" Bipolar people. Ok, she's not completely crazy, but she's definitely not firing on all cylinders.
Her husband has... I don't know, nor do they really have a 100% idea of what's wrong.
I think it's crazy shaken (not stirred) cocktail of schizophrenia, ADHD, and depression.
For me though, I am bored because I just want someone to chat with.
Ellie was sick over the weekend, and whenever I felt the possible urge to be intimate with her, I refrained from trying to get worked up.
The rest of the time Ellie wants to do it, it's really late at night, I'm tired as hell from the Zyprexa side affect...
That and I'm not feeling very close to her, because we just don't spend time with each other.
Last week, she put on a movie in the front room to watch it, instead of hinting that spend time in the bedroom.
Even if we don't do the humpy-dumpy, it's nice to just spend time interacting with each other. Like playing cribbage or backgammon or even just chatting about stuff we did or want to do.
I love Ellie and several months ago we were really going at it, I felt so much closer to her than I do now.
Just seems that I can't get her to slow down and spend time with me.
I've bitched, moaned and ranted enough time.
Keep your stick on the ice.
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