I took Xanax and lots of X-Lax this morning. I can't get off the toilet, but I feel good about it.

I'm still worried about the job situation, but some how I feel very calm and peaceful...

Perhaps it's because I prayed and laid out my situation, concerns, doubts and fears to my Father in Heaven.

After all, I have proved his tender mercies more often than I can almost remember.  Which is a lot!

Ellie can only describe my memory as "photographic".  I think she's right.

It's not that I can see something and recall it back in perfect detail every time.

What basically happens, is that I manage to "record" like a video certain things that have happened. 

Sometimes, when I dream, I record stuff that actually will happen to me!  Not unlike Joseph, which was sold into Egypt.

Speaking of Egypt...

If you've been following my blog at all in the past few weeks, you know that I've been on an upper, manic state.

I've been thinking very strongly about getting my first tattoo... it'll be the Eye of Horus.

This is partly due to reading my favorite Rick Riordan books, The Kane Chronicles.

Here's how I think about the symbol: (From http://learningenglish.voanews.com/content/a-23-2009-03-21-voa3-83143007/130264.html  Also, this is similar to what is described in The Kane Chronicles)

The evil Seth put out the eye of the young Horus.  The mother of Horus called for help.  Her cry was answered by Thoth, the god of learning and magic.  Thoth, with his wisdom and special powers, healed the eye of Horus.  The child was able to see again.

Ancient Egyptians used a drawing of the eye of Horus as a magic sign to protect themselves from disease, suffering and evil.  They cut this sign in the stones they used for buildings, and it was painted on the papyrus rolls used for writing about medicine and doctors.

For thousands of years, the eye of Horus remained as a sign of the god's help to the suffering and sick. 

Long after the fall of the ancient Egyptian civilization, doctors and alchemists in Europe continued the custom of showing a sign of the gods' help and protection.

If I get into a "all systems go" and "I can keep from bouncing off the walls" mood again... I believe the local Tattoo parlor will get a visit from me.  Since I figure it's just a matter of time, I called them and found that it should cost me $15+ to get it done.  I only want it to be around 1" at the widest and to be on the forearm close to the elbow.

I want it to be visible, but also nondescript.  So you see it, but don't take much notice to it.