Looks like my bipolar disorder has me going through some faster & faster cycling... I suppose it's a rapid cycle scenario I've read about my bipolar "brothers & sisters".(anyone who has bipolar that I run into online.)
Last night, I was an asshole and I know it... Only towards the end of the night.
Honestly, I don't/didn't know WTF was happening.
This morning until around 12:00 PM, I still felt close to the same, had no desire to work!
After 12:00PM or so, I started perking up and getting things done.
I know that I need something to help with my mood, beyond Lamictal...but I don't know that Zyprexa is the actual help I need.
I'm going to stop taking the Zyprexa for a few days to see if my good mood keeps going.
Prior to my sudden upbeat, I left a message with my counselor to see if she was still available to see me.
No return calls yet... I'll have to remember to call her tomorrow.
Through my employer I get like Eight Free sessions per year. After those eight are over, then the insurance will start covering the sessions... perhaps I'll have a copay at that time.. but I doubt it.
To continue with my tirade.. I suppose it's a tirade...
My mom called me up to ask me to wish her a "happy birthday" and "happy anniversary". Then she proceeded to tell me that I should talk to my oldest daughter, and I pretty much told my mom to take a flying fucking leap about the business with my daughter.
That oldest kid of mine is pretty damn worthless and untrustworthy and I really don't care one ounce if she ever comes back, calls me, etc.
Just don't care...
Perhaps I'm just a cold hearted asshole? After all... I won't blink at doing many things that others have moral issues with... Like standing up to people and just saying it like it is.. or shooting from the hip rather. Being blunt and honest over being kind.
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