Rudy Stop. You're throwing off my rhythm

That quote is from Patch Adams, where his roommate Rudy is afraid of invisible Squirrels who are out for his nuts.

I'm in a squirrel mood right now, but not completely.

It's not like I'm really distracted, but I cannot focus.

I feel antsy.  I want to be doing anything but what I'm doing right now.

Even if I stop trying to work right now, I'm going to feel the same way.  Except I'll probably try to do two things at once.

Like listening to an old time radio show, and doing a puzzle, trying to read a book or knitting my "coon skin" hat.  Or perhaps, figuring out additional modifications and tweaks to make my Ham Radio gear better.

Currently, with the radio, I doubt, I could really get much more out of it without bigger, better antennas or perhaps an amplifier of sorts.

Right now, I wish I had another operator friend that could be ready for me when I go out quite a ways to test my equipment setup.

Currently, my testing shows that my little BaoFeng UV-5R+ can do a LOT more than expected when connected to my slingshot antenna.

WHY can't I concentrate to work or even type this blog entry?

I feel REALLY distracted.

Right now, I want a fresh cut or deep scratch or something to help pull me into a state where I feel something.

Other than numb.

WAKE UP 

BASTARD!

Perhaps I'm not completely fucked up, but I feel that way.

Just not able to concentrate, and able to work.  What I'm trying to do right now is new and I usually like to get into new things and challenges.

I would see a doctor, but I don't know who'd be faster to see.  My new primary doctor or my shrink.

The appointment with the shrink is in a few weeks, while I might be able to see the family doctor sooner.

My inability to work and concentrate is getting bad, and I'm afraid that if I really don't start to produce work at my old fury I'll lose my job.

I suppose, I'll call my family doctor, although, I don't know if he can do anything to help, except to tell me to see the shrink.

I'm starting to gain my weight back because I cannot concentrate, and all I do is eat, because I'm bored trying to work, when I don't get anything done.