I am a man of constant sorrow!!!

I don't really understand why God has decided that I need to be a man of constant sorrow or perhaps a man of constant pain.

A month or so ago, I was able to wear my shoes again after the original bout of gout & what not.

Now, again, I'm FUBAR!

My feet have been sore and painful for weeks, but bearable.

Now, the fucking gout/swelling at the back of the heel is back again.

Again, I'm at the same dilemma, where the Fuck to go for remedy!

I saw my GP and he gave me some prednisone, and some more Colcrys.

The rest of Monday was painful, but not too damn bad.. I think.

Tuesday morning, the fucker woke me up again, around 3:00 AM.

I took my regular meds. the prednisone, and Colcrys.

Pain started to subside.  Yet, it was there through out the morning.

In the afternoon, I was able to take my regular pain meds, and the Colcrys.  My pain pills haven't been enough to control the pain and it seems that the Colcrys has been working really well.

I tested it by taking it hours before my afternoon dose of pain meds.  Then again that night, hours before my regular pain pills.

The pain subsided, not all the way, but bearable.

Last night, I slept pretty well, and didn't really wake up due to pain.

When I woke up, "Shark Tooth" Bruce was there, sleeping at my feet and I bumped the little fucker's head with my heel, and woke myself up the rest of the way.

The last couple of hours, I was trying to sit up and work, but the pain couldn't be controlled that sitting at my desk.  So now, I'm sitting up in the recliner, typing this and hoping I can get back to work.

I'm really tired of pills and this fucking pain.

I agree with a guy at church, that I seem to have been born to sustain pain.  I bore the kidney stone pain, now this fucking gout pain, and of course the sinus & migraine pains.

As I first started, I have become a man of constant sorrow, and it really fucking hurts.

My bipolar is under control, and I'm not really able to feel depressed about this current situation, but I really hate it though.

I sent a number of messages to my new GP and haven't heard back yet.  I wonder if I should just schedule an appointment with him, just to get better response from him.

I honestly don't know what to do.

It just fucking hurts.